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Just to FeelI would cut
just to feel the pain
just to know
that my life was worth it

Every inch on my arm
every inch on my leg
I would cut
just to feel the pain deep inside

To watch the blood pour down
to cry in happiness
I would cut
just to know that I still feel

Cutting my skin
burning it completely
I would suffer in agony
just to see if I still feel

Every scar that is there
every inch that I cut
it just proves
how much my life was worth it

I would cut
just to feel the pain
to know that Im still alive
to know that I still feel

Feeling of pain
feeling of torture
I would cut
to know that I still feel
In this world...

Lonely NightAnother Lonely Night
beneath this darkness I hide
the depression takes over control...
while I start to fade...

The anxiety starts to act up...
as my mind thinks heavy thoughts..
wish this pain would go away
wish everything was different....

My body reacts badly
this pain is so deep
wish the thoughts would vanish
I wish my life turned out differently

Another lonely night
is all that it takes...
a mind that takes control...
of the thoughts that are deep inside

The urge for pain
the urge to react
my mind takes over control...
on this Lonely night I live

I want to forget names,& faces,
& people.

I want to forget their veins,
fingerprints forever burned into my eyelids;
wrists I can't look at
without longing to tear apart.

Spine full, and spiteful:

I want to cry
roses in my midnight tea
for these star collapsed lungs.

I want to cry for her
& for me.

But Shame,
she wont allow me the courtesy.

We Children of the Town1.
Ring around the rosie
Holding hands,
we children dance and sing.
We skip and hop
and never, ever stop.
There's a story to be told here,
one that goes on and on here.
We sing and dance.
And we're the children of the town.

2.
A pocket full o' posy
Picking flowers,
one by one.
They grow in the meadow,
they grow in the forest.
The pretty little things
that make our houses all smell nice.
They make the air smell fresher.

3.
Ashes, ashes
The children of the town.
We watch our entire world
come tumbling down.
The town is burning,
falling to ash.
It blows away through the wind.
But at least the witch
has gone from our m

One Muddle of a Hundred Thousand ThoughtsI feel dizzy.
I am feeling so many emotions,
That I'm feeling nothing.
I'm listening to one song,
On constant repeat.

'Round and round, I wanna run away this time'

My chest is sore,
My head is pounding,
And I'm tired.
I'm so tired.
I need something
To take this feeling away.
I'm not even trying
With my life anymore.
I don't think I care,
But I'm not sure.

'The emptiness inside you is hard enough to fill'

It's too bright in this room.
I want it dark.
I want to feel alone.
But don't I hate feeling alone?
I want to make more scars.
But don't I hate the way they look?
I want to go back in time.
But don't I hate what happened?

'Shooting dow

please help please please pleasei just lost everything. everything that made me want to keep breathing. im so scared. im too drugged up, i dont know whats really real and whats not. i cut too badly, no one is going to save me now. i cant be alone i cant do this i cant do this everything is breaking i cant do this

I am so sorry...I fucked everything up.... and I know it.....
and everything is falling apart....
I'm so scared I'm going to loose my best friend...
and myself....
Last night I relapsed. I ripped apart my razor and I sliced up my arm. I am so ashamed of myself. I talk to my best friend, Lynnae, about these things. I talk to her and Lexi and Austin, all girls. I promised them I would try to not do this. I did it though. I hurt again and I messed everything up. Only Lexi knows but I bet she hates me. Who wouldn't hate me? I'm a selfish monster. I only think of ways to hurt myself. I have messed everything up. I am such a fuck up. I really didn't want to do it... but I needed it... I needed it so bad.... I wish I could take back last night...
I want to lay in someone's lap and cry..and cry.. and scream at myself and.. I want to punish myself... but I can't...
but I need to....
I found out a good friend of mine, one who helps me a lot, relapsed a month ago. I know it was a month ago but whenever I asked a

FreakYou always tell me it's just a phase I'm going through
Even though it's been several years
After all the times you took away everything
The darkness was what you feared

You think I'm gonna be that girl I was several years ago
But let me tell you: I'm not going back.
So you can say I'm going through a phase
But really, that's just crap.

So tell me that I'm not who I used to be
Tell me that this isn't me
But really it is and hopefully one day you'll see
That this is me, whether you like it or not.

Some people ask, "Is that your daughter?"
With a look of disgust and disgrace,
Since apparently they can't stand
My lined eyes and my pale face.

Don't Mind Me.I wonder how many small cuts I can make all over my body before I bleed out. Hmm. I wonder how long it would take for someone to find me. Ha.
I don't want to be here anymore.
I don't know how much more I can take. I'm already shattered.
I've never felt this low before.
People are always saying things can only get better, but you don't know what I've been through and what is yet to come.
I want to die.
I want to be free.

ShatteredThere is no peace to find in this world
Our happiness fallen into the pits
Shattered by hate and jealousy
A world once filled with love and joy
gone just like that

things fall so easily
Its hard to love once again
when we are all broken
its hard to live in this fucken world
and know happiness is so far away

Was this the way the world was meant to be?
was this the way life had to be?
Was this to be the story of our lives?
An empty tale of pain and dead dreams
A dream that now is nothing but darkness

things fall so easily
Its hard to love once again
When we are all broken
Its hard to live in this dam world
and know that happiness has been sh

Just CryShould I sleep?
Or just stay awake,
Just to weep,
I’m so sad
And so full of sorrow
I don’t know what to do,
My love has turned to hate,
And all I have left to do
Is cry,
My heart out
Over you.

LeaveIf I leave
Will you see,
Just what this world
Has done to me?

If I leave
Will you notice I’m gone?
Or will you bitch about me
Saying I did wrong.

If I leave
Will you care?
Will you think of me
Or will you thoughts be bare

If I leave
And be gone forever
Will you regret that we
Were never together?

If I leave
What will you do?
Will you take me away
To somewhere new?

I’m going to leave
What do you think?
I’ll be gone soon
So don’t blink

You said when I leave
You would make me stay
Well, you better follow through
For I leave today

So when I leave
Will you stop me?
Will you give me hope
And set my soul free.

I can’t leave now
For you have given me life
You have finally taken me
Away from my strife

So thank you boy
I’m not going to leave
My problems are halved
I can finally breath.

Please Don't Leave MeYou slowly turn your back on me
It’s been ten years already…
Why can’t my voice call out to you?
We knew this would come someday…
I want to hold you close and never let you go
But goodbyes don’t have to be painful, you know…

I don’t want to say it.
You won’t really leave my side.
Don’t you know I’m afraid of goodbyes?
The last farewell between lovers? friends?

But you’re walking away
and I can’t keep up with you.

56. FragmentsLying here in bed, and all I do is cry,
There are many reasons why I want to die.
She broke my heart into a thousand pieces,
And I won't drop the knife until the pain ceases.

I want to scream and end it all right now,
But I'm too scared and I'm not sure how.
I can't let go, like I need the knife to survive,
Yet it is close to preventing me from being alive.

Turning it over and over in my hand,
I ponder the results of my final stand.
Paralyzed as I watched her walk away,
Though the breakup wasn't as bad as what she had to say.

She said that she cheated with another guy,
And the only single word I could say was "why?"
She turned a

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by ~Blanche-sama, Oct 15, 2012, 12:36:20 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I am a perfect daughter
I am a perfect girl
I am educated, I am fragile
And I never do anything wrong
If my parents want me to do something
I'll do
If my friends want me to do something
I'll do

I am a terrible daughter
I am a terrible girl
I am rude, I am strong
And I always do everything wrong
If my parents want me to do something
It looks like I'm not able to do it
If my friends want me to do something
It looks like I don't want to do it

Dad, mom, do you really know me?
Do you know the battle that happens inside of me?
Do you know how much I hate you?
Do you know how much I love you?
Do you know how it's the feeling to hate and love somebody...
At the same time?
Do you know how much I hate myself?
Do you know how much I hate my friends?

Dad, mom, do you really know how people see me?
They think I'm intelligent, cute, shy, fragile
And a very good daughter
Why would I tell them who I really am?
If it's going to benefit me
It's better to let them live their illusion.
But the truth is that I'm nothing

Dad, mom, do you really know who I am?
Do you know how much I want to change the world?
How much I want to kill the world...
Do you know how much I hate everything around me?
And do you know who I am?
Selfish, stupid, lost, hurt, damned, broken.

Dad, mom, do you know that, in the end, I hate myself?
Do you know how many times I wished I was never born?
How many times I wished the world was never born...
A girl who wants to change the world.
A girl who wants to kill the world.
I'm nothing but a fool.

Foolby ~Blanche-sama

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

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~WildHeartLovesAll Oct 16, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

this is my life good job

~Blanche-sama Oct 17, 2012 Student Writer

well, it's mine too. Thank you.

~WildHeartLovesAll Oct 17, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

your welcome and I hope things improve

~Blanche-sama Oct 18, 2012 Student Writer

me too, thank you again.

~WildHeartLovesAll Oct 18, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

your welcome! for me no one seems to understand why I would hate my determined and struggling mother. No one understands, not even my sister...

~Blanche-sama Dec 31, 2012 Student Writer

yeah, same thing here... It seems that nobody in my family can understand me.. They only say I'm being childish when I try to tell them what I'm feeling -.-'

~WildHeartLovesAll Dec 31, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

my family believes in perfection, it seems like my sister is in my mothers favor, whatever I do is wrong, I'm just not perfect enough. So I chose to be the rebel, its got me nowhere but its too late to turn back now

~Al3xDk Oct 16, 2012

Such an awesome poem yet with so much bad things in it..

~Blanche-sama Oct 17, 2012 Student Writer

thank you... I guess

~Al3xDk Oct 18, 2012

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