I sing "So Far Away" like I'm making a prayer. And I sing "Fiction" the same way.
Because I know you're listening.
And I don't stop singing, even when my tears make my vision blur.
Even when I can make my voice sound because of all the tears.
Even when I hide my face on my hands and cry because I'm missing you.
I know you don't want to see me that way.
And that's why I'm always angry with myself when I cry.
But my tears only mean something:
"I miss you, but I know you are by my side.
I know you are here for us."
Every time I imagine the four guys I love so much as I love you meeting you again in Heaven - and I know this will happen someday -, end every time I imagine their happiness, tears come to my eyes.
Tears of pain, tears of joy.
Tears because I miss you everyday.
But I know one day I won't cry anymore.
And I won't cry anymore, not because I will stop loving you, but because I'll understand.
You are a fallen angel, that came to Earth to spread a message, just with the way you are. But angels always return to their home. To Heavens.
Because you were always so funny, so happy, so alive, that it can't be over.
I know you are alive, somewhere. And I know you're okay.
And I'll try to be like you - someone who lived everyday like it was the last one.
Someone who always said "I love you" to the loved ones.
Someone who gave inspiration to thousands.
Someone that saved me.